In these recent days, series of my “to-dos” pile as stack or queue or whatever to name it, in my head.
Felt just like yesterday while everyone celebrated new year, nevertheless, can you imagine it’s been a month passed of the new year 2008?
In such circumstance, it can be a good ritual to reflect what I have done so far.
But, the more I reflect, the more I conclude that all things are still beyond expectation! In one way, it motivate me, whilst the other way it scared me.
Yup, Frankly, I became worried of my “time management”-worried of giving up the time to keep all the tracks I planned. All I know is I need to catch up so many things here with the limited specified time. I began to think : Am I taking it too serious? Dunno.. >.<
However, I was enlightened by this professor and this great woman. I’m always encouraged and amazed of how they can keep the pace with time. They keep producing great works for others while retaining their happiness.
I would like to sleep like 8 hours or more like the professor, and still having time for hobbies. Or maybe keep the power of sharing from Jennie and achieve one by one of her dream came true.
But? As for me, it’s still hard to be applied.. what I’ve been through so far, I quite sacrificed my happiness to catch up all the plans in track. I actually don’t want to be dragged with such negative thought, instead of being blessed so much. But sometimes it happened.
It was 1 year ago that I felt so rushy preparing the A-Zs to Japan, a never ending rehearsal.
I was so much getting pressure of ‘pro and kontra’ : why I should leave the company and family for being a scholar, the despair of not getting room but there’s good friend who helped, and ended blessfully being accepted in dormitory. It was also the moment that I contacted my seniors for tons of questions raised regarding to the academic and daily life in Japan.
And now? How time flies, I’ve been contacted by the scholars for this year’s coming.
I really understand how excited and probably with confusion blended, of how things will do in Japan. I’m still green but sincerely hope I have offered as much assistance as I can.
Almost a year, I’m spending quite hard times to refresh my knowledge in Maths, Programming as I was not fresh graduate by the time I applied for the scholarship plus the Japanese to comprehend the problem sets. Even now, I’m still like too poor for the subject and asked too much questions to others. That’s why I need extra time and effort.
Though my efforts has brought me passing the master entrance test, it’s still a long way to go. Yeah, it’s another two year to complete the master program!
Yesterday, I heard my friends having their master entrance result as their tests’re in January. It’s a total of 19 foreigners took the written test (I have 6 friends- 1 from Indonesia, 3 from Taiwan, 1 from China, 1 from Mongol). And it’s only 9 persons were accepted out of 19.
While among my friends : each from Indonesia,Taiwan, and Mongol failed. It’s not the final result actually, because the next stage for them will be quite hard : only 5 will be granted to take the master course, meaning another four persons will be eliminated.
Note : You might find the following paragraph is no interesting at all, and may skip it, unless for the scholarship seekers/students-to-bePlease notice the Mongolian and the Taiwanese are the scholars from Monbusho and the other from Taiwan scholarship program. But it didnt guarantee of passing the test.
I might be wrong, but I would recommend it’s better to find out as much information of acceptance percentage year by year, finding a spare dept if it’s needed. Because as their case, they have to wait for the next year test, as it’s only 1x test/year.
I truly felt so sorry for the Indonesian friend as well. I do learn a lot from him, especially the lesson of life. He’s a self motivated student, he came to Japan on his own desire, with no scholarship. He struggled so hard here: doing the part time job to survive, attempt grabbing the scholarship, applying from Japan. But it’s hard as a real competition to be elected from the worldwide students who came Japan before getting scholarship.. I pray for his doing best and passing all these hard times.
That’s why, despite of the negative thought, I would like to create my happiness theorem :
Sacrifice my sleeping time or not spending time for hobbies for good result it may become, will probably “a little help to others, hopefully make an extra bonus for making my family proud of me” as my happiness? I might override my ego and think of others, it will be the a way to make myself happy while seeing others happy, I think in the meantime.
In the mid of all the craziness conquering the time, I should be thankful of the so-many blessings towards me up to now..
Hope you guys have a great weekend!